I don’t have to prove myself to anyone ,i myself am enough.I stand in truth because i speak my truth.Sharing who i really am with others thrills my heart.I am in complete control of my life.Quality speaks for itself.Beautiful things don’t ask for attention.
This picture says it all.So powerful.
This is everything.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper…As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I’m standing on my feet…Go run, run, run
I’m gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it’s a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
Do you know what our country is suffering from? I will diagnose it as limited thinking. The free spirited people that live in our country will completely understand what I’m saying. They’re probably choking on the smoke caused by these narrow minded, uncreative, religious, conservative fuckers that think they know how other people should live their lives when in reality they’re high class losers. See, your minds are as tiny as a walnut and as hard as a walnut’s shell. It is pretty sad to see how some people won’t evolve anymore, they stop their evolution .People that won’t accept anything that is not ‘normal’, but what is normal?
“If being sane is thinking there’s something wrong with being different….I’d rather be completely fucking mental.”-Angelina Jolie
These people have difficulties accepting the differences they see in others and they turn to gossips or violence. I am not taking about the differences some people intentionally impose on themselves to separate themselves from the crowd, but the differences that are attached to our being since birth. The differences that create our identity. These people are very often seduced by judgment and criticism. They live with the opinions their grandparents left incarnated in them, and they live happy with such brains. They dwell in ignorance thinking that religion gives them some kind of moral standards. Religion doesn’t give you shit! These morals that came out of a society that was conservative and limiting are the ones on which these people rely and use them to fight against the things they can’t accept. People that are spreading their negative energy all around the place, they are like a dark cloud that darkens the day. They’re the all knowing and all wise, Macedonia is full of them. Many other people are victims of such monstrous creatures just for being themselves. Victims of their constant bullying and violence. The violence might not be physical, but the verbal one is far worse. It can leave the victim permanently scarred. Freedom to me is the most beautiful thing one can have.
FREEDOM is the oxygen of the soul –Moshe Dayan
The freedom to express yourself and to develop in your full potential. To be the architect of your own destiny. The freedom to be. Each one of us has the right to exist. This is your birth right and no one can tell you differently. Sadly some people can’t seem to digest this .Many of the so called journalists take advantage of their position to spread hate instead of promoting tolerance, acceptance and love. Yes, you have the right to your own opinion, but sometimes, when the opinion is mean it is better to keep it to ourselves. With such negative people that obviously live in another century come a lot of problems. Here are some problems caused by them :
'I hate the word homophobia. It's not a phobia. You are not scared; you are an asshole.'
Trust Mr. Morgan he knows what he’s saying. I still can’t understand these people, the homophobes. ,I really try my best but it’s not working. I try to get into their mindset and see why they would look at something that is so pure and beautiful as something completely nasty. And the answer ‘it’s not normal ‘ is what I want to hear the least. Are guns and wars normal? Are drugs normal? Are cheating in a relationship and domestic violence normal? Is bullying normal? NO! But people accept these things and make them seem normal. They have excuses for doing these things to ease their conscience but they still practice them In the severe reality more than tolerance and acceptance towards others. Besides, homosexuality is NOT treated as a decease, therefore, it is not!
Do you think that people wake up one day and decide to be gay? Why? Why would they do that? Why would people want to intentionally bring pain and oppression in their lives? Because it’s not intentional, people are BORN that way and they can’t help the passion they feel for the same sex. Do you know what it means to be born gay in a society like ours? Yeah me neither, I only know how it feels from what some people near my heart have told me. People that are scared to tell their parents who they really are because they fear rejection. Me and my parents have always had an open relationship and I just can’t imagine this. I know that whatever I tell my mom she’s gonna love me unconditionally. But I’ve heard stories where parents quit their children because they’re ashamed of them. You pussies! I’m sorry, but that’s what you are! You don’t deserve to be anyone’s parents. A parental love is unconditional, it’s supreme, it’s holy. Please, if you are a homophobe, please do not reproduce! Who knows, maybe your kid will turn out to be gay or worse will grow up into a homophobe just like you, spreading hate shit around.
Hater niggas, marry hater bitches and have hater kids-Kanye West
Gay people are the sweetest, most talented people I know. They have so much creativity within them and compassion for other people, and I think that comes from the oppression and discrimination they’re dealing with on an everyday basis. Many events happened during the previous couple of years in Macedonia concerning this subject .The very fact that the actor Petar Stojkovikj came out with a confessional article was a huge step towards the mental liberation not only of the gay people but of the Macedonians in general. I’m sure he liberated many people out of their personal demons, and he made the rest of us think. The price he paid for being himself is ridiculous. They demolished his house, threatened him…what a barbaric attitude! I mean, go get a life! Demolishing the LGBT center in the Old Bazaar and writing Tremiti on it were other things that happened. Tremiti was a place where Mussolini sent the gay people.
I seriously feel sorry for you, because by keeping your mind so narrow minded you keep yourself away from all the love you can experience.
I’m not claiming gay people are saints, cause they’re not. They’re humans, that’s what I’m trying to tell you. Just like you and just like me. It’s ok not to like a gay person, but not based on their sexuality. I mean do you not like people based on the food they eat?
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
‘Cause we’re so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor
So you say
It’s not okay to be gay
Well I think you’re just evil
You’re just some racist who can’t tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval-Lilly Allen
Another thing people are against are gay marriages. Hmmm…’That’s not normal, how will I explain this to my kids?’
How did you explain them the first kiss they saw on TV? How did you explain them the first sex scene in a movie? I believe that instead of the stupid religious subjects some kids get at school there should be a subject about sexuality. In that way children will hear all they need to know about others but also about themselves. We’ll teach them what homosexuality is and they’ll learn tolerance, but no! The government likes the religious subject more because the government likes to keep people religious and ignorant. It benefits from these kind of people. Once again religion is used to manipulate the masses. Who is the government to define what marriage is? The new law that states that marriage is a unity between a man and a woman completely discriminates gay people .I would have to go with a Frank Ocean quote right now:
I believe marriage isn’t between a man and a woman, but between love and love.
Every human being on this planet needs love. We’re all searching for love. I don’t care who you are, and how statue like you are on the outside! We’re all searching for that pure love that loyal love, that forever love! It doesn’t have to be a romantic love, it can be a love from a friend or a mother or a dog, but it is still LOVE.
Love is such a hard thing to find. To find somebody who’s willing to go through anything with you and stand by you, that on its own is a hard thing to find. The fact that people want to complicate it even more just absolutely baffles me. If it happens cherish it! What does it matter if you’re sharing it with a man or a woman?-Charlize Teron
Another thing concerning this marriage question is the adoption of kids, I once saw a post on tumblr that went something like this:
So…you would rather a kid be an orphan than have two daddies?
More and more gay couples are adopting kids left in orphanages by their straight parents…
Think about it and free your mind. If our society’s mentality changes that won’t be awkward at all.
Why are you so afraid of them? Not all gay people will hit on you. Not all gay men are feminine and not all lesbians are masculine .Stop these ridiculous stereotypes.
A friend of mine recently run a marathon on the Gay Games in Cleveland to raise the awareness of equality. The message she wanted to send out is that we’re all equal no matter of gender, religion or sexual orientation. This is quite a peaceful massage, but it’s peaceful only for the open minded people, all the others saw it as a threat for Macedonia. The controversy came out because she used the name of our country on the slogan printed on her sportswear, part of DiBiaggio’s collection for the organization PinkSupport.mk that sponsored her participation in the marathon. The slogan was ‘I’m LGBT…Muslim…Christian…Jewish…Disabled…I am…MACEDONIA’ -Well, Macedonia is not made up solely of straight people, nor Muslims nor just Christians. Macedonia is like a beautiful cocktail made of various fruits and different alcohols. After all, we’re glad that some kind of reaction was provoked. That was the whole point, that the massage penetrates through the minds of the homophobes, the racists, the discriminators and the oppressors, and to give out some kind of reaction. To make them think. Once she announced she was going to run the marathon so much negativity came out of her own country. Instead of supporting someone as inspiring as her, people started attacking her. To be honest I was quite skeptic about how can the marathon solve the issue, but I realized that just bringing up the question of equality is already a big deal. Talking about these things can make a change in at least one person, and if that’s so her mission is done. She didn’t do it for fame or an award or some kind of recognition, she did it with the best of her intentions. We’ve both spoken about how Macedonia needs to change, people need to stop living in a patriarchal, conservative society. It’s the 21st century for Christ sake ,the evolution can’t stop here. I support my friend unconditionally and will always have her back no matter what. I think what she’s doing together with the organization PinkSupport.mk https://www.facebook.com/pinksupport.mk
,that is involved in charities that help the marginalized groups in Macedonia, is a wonderful thing to do.
Her main goal is to change the mentality of our people, to make people more accepting and less critical of what they don’t understand or are not even trying to. She’s extremely inspirational, to be honest she might be the reason why I’m writing this post.
Another thing people in Macedonia are not ready to accept are the transgendered people. You know, I believe you can be born as one thing but be another. You can be born in one country but belong to another culture. That’s why you start learning about that culture to the point of obsession or you take language courses, you dress the way they dress. The same happens with the body of certain people. They might be born as men but they feel like a woman. I have so much respect for Mykki Blanco ,a transgendered rapper. Even on his heels he’s killin it. To be a tranny in an industry that’s predominantly masculine is a courageous thing to do. In our country Fifi did something similar. That girl, can sing! When I first saw Fifi was years ago on some show and she spoke about how much Christina Aguilera has inspired her, and that is when I first bonded with her. I am not really a big fan of her music but I do respect what she’s about-FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION.
People always ask why gay and transgendered people are always so dramatic. They are not dramatic ,if a normal girl acted the way they do no one would say anything. Maybe the artists are a little bit, because when you want to bring attention to something you need to go to the extremes. This attention is not always based on gaining fame, because we’re all aware of the dark side of fame. It is courageous to speak out as loud as some of these people do .
LEAVE THESE PEOPLE ALONE. Be indifferent if you must but stop using violence. Stop the neGAYtivity , mind your own business, and move on with your life.
The only way to get rid of gay people is to kill every single human being on this planet because let mi highlight you-gay people come from heterosexuals. There will always be homosexuals as long as there are heterosexuals on this planet. So, long live the gays!
Live and let live that’s my motto, anyone who can’t go along with that-take him outside, and shoot the motherfucker-George Carlin
I once stood in front of the then existing McDonald’s in the Center of the city ,waiting for a friend, and I couldn’t help but realize that everybody were the same. Dressed in the same way, with the same boots and jeans and jackets. No individuality, no personal touch to anything. That’s when I realized that Macedonians are extremely scared people, of course there are exceptions but in general people are afraid to let the world know who they really are.
Yes, you have the people that desperately want to be named as fashion icons so they’re covered in labels but that does not make you a fashion icon, that make you a fashion victim, and I feel sorry for you.
Luxury should remain invisible, but it must be felt –Coco Chanel
Fashion is what the shops offer 4 times a year and style is what you pick out of that fashion. Something that suits your soul and identity. We often turn to fashion to build an identity and that’s why I believe fashion is extremely important. As a matter of fact the only ways in which we build our identities is through fashion and words. The words we choose to express ourselves, and the way we arrange them in sentences. In Macedonia if you’re not conventional they’ll absolutely label you as a freak. Well, in the words of Pharrell Williams:
I’d rather be a freq than not be unique
Individuality makes life better
If a girl with green or blue hair passes by people act like she might be an alien. They give her strange looks, they gossip with their friends, label her as an absolute junkie. Why don’t you just congratulate her on her bravery for a change? I would like to see YOU walking around fiercely with such extravagance. But you know what the problem is? You are AFRAID.
I make it easy for people to take shots cause I don’t play it safe-Christina Aguilera
You hide behind your hair cause you’re too afraid to take risks but find it awfully easy to criticize.You live in your comfort zone spending your life with no creativity at all,and that to me is far worse than a green hair.
"Style is wearing an evening dress to McDonalds, wearing heels to play football. It is personality, confidence and seduction."-John Galliano
When I was in Germany, there by the lake, came a couple dressed in elegant clothing with beer and pizza in their hands. That can never happen here because of the mentality of the people. I always wanted to do yoga or meditate in my backyard but I am extremely worried about what my neighbors would think( I know it’s partly my fault, but if I was in another country I would totally do it).
Fashion is not a luxury, it’s a right-Sarah Jessica Parker
There are so many beautiful pieces of clothing you can buy in some of the second hand shops we have here or on the bazaars, clothing and jewelry that are shamelessly cheap. It’s all a matter of style. But people are ashamed to shop there because they think their social status will be revealed. These shops are full with some kick ass vintage clothes and it’s a shame that they’ll stay on those shelves.
Anna Wintour: Just because you like to put on a beautiful Carolina Herrera dress or a pair of J Brand blue jeans instead of something basic from K-Mart it doesn’t mean that you’re a dumb person.
Exactly! So stop labeling every single, decent looking woman on the street as being a bitch, or dumb or typical blonde. That kind of attitude won’t get you anywhere. Get to know the person and then judge!
Free your minds people and learn to dress to express not to impress. Learn what your personal swag is about and fearlessly head in that direction. Be a conversation piece. Do what you always wanted to do with your body because that’s where you’ll be stuck forever. Your body is the house for your soul so decorate the house however you want. Girls are so scared to experiment that it makes me puke. They’re so afraid of cutting their hair feeling like they won’t be beautiful anymore. It’s just hair, it’ll grow back, that’s what it does. Some people for whatever reason can’t have hair. Be grateful and creative with your body and your personal style. I know women are scared but men are even more scared .All men dress the same, it gets boring. I always look up to people that can pull off anything, that are fearlessly expressing themselves. I like women that if they don’t feel like wearing a bra would let their breasts jiggle when they’re walking down the stairs, I find that absolutely charming. If they don’t want to wear makeup they most certainly won’t. That’s all life is about, expressing yourself.
I was blessed to have finished the High School of Medicine here in Skopje. I say blessed not because I was crazy about medicine but because that was the best life lesson I ever got, to stay on my feet and stay humble , knowing that the most valuable thing in the world are not money nor love, but health. I’ve seen things that have really moved me since I’m so oversensitive, but I got to appreciate my own life more. Each day we take certain things for granted, like your eye sight. Do you know how blessed you are for being able to read what I have written on this blog? Or the very fact that you can hear, and walk and there is no physical pain that eats you from the inside.
Health is always taken for granted. People are always jealous at other people for the material things but I’ve never heard anyone be jealous of someone else for their good sight, or the energy they have.
Maria ,the girl who ran the marathon, has this organization called PinkSupport.mk. This organization deals with the marginalized groups in Macedonia. Currently they’re focused on helping the blind people. They even made a movie about a blind guy called Goce. When I saw the trailer I was really moved. Words cannot describe how proud I am of her. Here’s the link you can all see it
This really inspired me. This movie fights against the prejudices that these people need to fight against on an everyday basis. Just because someone is blind does not mean that they’re unable to work. They can do all sorts of work, work that does not include visuals. The slogan for this project is We Care because these people need to know that they’re not alone and there are actually people who care. I really hate how disabled people are treated in our country. They are seen as being completely useless in cases when that is not the truth. If a person can’t walk and can perfectly move his hands, why not give this person a job that is based solely on movement of the hands. There are extreme cases when that is impossible but many other people are treated unfairly.
One person can make a difference and everyone should try-John F. Kennedy
Let’s change for the better and treat these people the way they deserve. If I got you interested in the movie ,I just want to tell you that the movie will have its premiere in Skopje and if you’re interested you’re all welcomed. Once the final date is out I will post it on my fb. I don’t know about you but I find disabled people extremely inspirational. People that know that there’s more to life than partying, drinking, getting high and shopping. People that in their incompleteness have found completeness, and people that have found new ways to do the chores of everyday life.
A hero is not a fictional character, heroes are real people that are able to go beyond their limitations. Pink Support helps and cherishes these people and their differences .The differences that make them special and unique.
You know for a very long time I lived in a complete limbo. A time of your life when you’re baffled and you don’t know who you’re .You look at all these people around you that are so sure of themselves and you just sit between them like a moron not knowing what you’re about. Not until I started reading self help books did I began my spiritual awakening. Noticed how I said spiritual and not religious? Spirituality has nothing to do with god and everything to do with yourself. You are your own god. We live in a society of Muslims vs Christians where if we don’t show much tolerance, the violence will open its claws. It already did, if we look back in past. I’m not telling you not to believe in God, though I can’t find a reason why you do, but I’m telling you not to let religion manipulate you. Be more accepting of the changes in the world and if they’re good try and practice them in your life.
I am a Jew. Hath not a Jew eyes? Hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions; fed with the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means, warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer as a Christian is? If you prick us do we not bleed? If you tickle us do we not laugh? If you poison us do we not die? And if you wrong us shall we not revenge? If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that. If a Jew wrong a Christian, what is his humility? Revenge. If a Christian wrong a Jew, what should his sufferance be by Christian example? Why, revenge. The villainy you teach me I will execute, and it shall go hard but I will better the instruction.
(III.i.49–61)-The Merchant of Venice
Violence and revenge go hand in hand. One follows the other and this cycle will one day result in destruction. It will erupt like a volcano and no one will be able to stop it. From a very early age we are taught how to hate Muslims and they’re taught how to hate Christians, though I think none of the both religions really promotes hate. I don’t think we can immediately become besties, but we can practice tolerance. Tolerance is so important in these cases. Before being Christians or Muslims we’re humans.
Hey, if you read history, you realize that God is one of the leading causes of death. Has been for thousands of years. Hindus, Muslims, Jews, Christians all taking turns killing each other ‘cause God told them it was a good idea. The sword of God, the blood of the lamb, vengeance is mine. Millions of dead motherfuckers. Millions of dead motherfuckers all because they gave the wrong answer to the God question. ‘You believe in God?’ ‘No.’ Boom. Dead. ‘You believe in God?’ ‘Yes.’ ‘You believe in my God? ‘No.’ Boom. Dead. ‘My God has a bigger dick than your God!’-George Carlin
#ideas &life choices
How difficult is it to express an idea over here. Nowadays everyone is a critic. It is nice to express your opinion , but express it in an intelligent way. There is a difference between freedom of speech and spreading hatred. I don’t fuckin care about your opinion if I haven’t asked for it ,if your only wish is to be extremely rude keep it to yourself .Words are the most powerful tool we have to lift someone up or bring them down .Because of criticism many smart people are afraid to express their ideas. These haters are such opinionated people and the confidence they have make really smart people feel superior. I know this as a teacher, you know that smart kid that’s so silent , trembling, afraid to say something because it just might sound stupid. Education has a great contribution to this kind of attitude the children have. After a kid makes a mistake most of the teachers would make fun of the kid or even yell, as if making mistakes is not a good thing. I have personally been a victim of such teachers which made me an insecure person.
There are the pretentious people too. Macedonia is full of them. The ones that think they’re better than anyone else. No you’re not, to be the best takes practice in whatever field you’re in, and you are just the beginner. You will sit and you will listen and you will take notes. Pay homage to the ones that came before you. Absorb like a sponge and grow. Truly great people are the ones that have obtained the degree of humility within them. Truly great people don’t know how great they are.
There’s too much jealousy here. People are jealous of the successes of others, they would die to see you fall. STOP IT! Only mentally weak people can be jealous. What bothers you is the fact that you think you can’t have what that other person has. Work on improving yourself and be the best that you can be. The best version of yourself.
There is nothing I hate more than a racist.-Fiona Goode /AHS
It exists and it is disgusting. Now to me there are two types of racism. The first one is when people openly hate different races and the second one is when people treat people from races other than the white like fuckin monuments to take pictures with. You’ve all met the latter ones, people that constantly stalk black people in clubs to take pictures with them.OMG I want to hit you with a chair! Leave that person alone. You act like you’ve never seen a black person before. Not all black people are fuckin rappers ,some like classical music, some like rock and deal with it. These people treat people from different races like non humans. What does it matter what race someone is, we all have red blood running through our veins (this is not mine, I read it somewhere)Older generations are I think more into racism. I think music somehow broke these boundaries all over the world and even in Macedonia, that’s why I think younger people are not that racist.
The differences we posses are our trademarks, they’re what makes us unique in the first place. If we embrace these differences and learn how to unite in our differences, we’ll be unstoppable. Our country will expand in ways we never thought was possible. If we try to change them then we lose our identity.And what is a life without an identity? Free your minds people, think outside of the box, look beyond the surface and you’ll see how beautiful this world is. Let’s show other people how much WE CARE, just natural acts of kindness. Free your mind and the rest will follow. Set an example and fight for a better future for your children. Think a little bit about what you preach and what you teach the youth of today. The youngsters these days are out of control, they are aggressive and violent, they learn from us.
Every single one of us is inspiring,there’s a little fighter in each one of us.Life is so cruel sometimes why should we complicate it even more?The freaks,the outsiders,the nerds,the oppressed,the underdogs and the discriminated are humans.They exist. No matter how invisible they are to you or how invisible you want them to be ,they are there.No ghosts but humans, radiating their own uniqueness.A uniqueness no one can deny,so you might as well accept it and move on with your life.
I will end this post with a quotation by Maya Angelou
I note the obvious differences
between each sort and type,
but we are more alike, my friends
than we are unalike.
“And in fact it wasn’t a need to be destructive or rebellious—it’s that need to find a full voice, to push open the walls around you. You want to be free. And as you start to feel that you are being corralled into a certain life, you kind of push against it. It may come out very strange, it may be interpreted wrong, but you’re trying to find out who you are.”
“I realized that very young—that a life where you don’t live to your full potential, or you don’t experiment, or you’re afraid, or you hesitate, or there are things you know you should do but you just don’t get around to them, is a life that I’d be miserable living, and the only way to feel that I’m on the right path is just to be true to myself, whatever that may be, and that tends to come with stepping out of something that’s maybe safe or traditional.”
Looking back at how much i have evolved through the years,it’s impossible not to be proud of myself :)